Been a while since ive posted but I feel it prudent to do so right now, this isn’t about depression or feeling low, or even about my bipolar. Its about peoples attitudes towards me as a human being.
As ive written before I have a very fucked up relationship with my family. Mainly because I have literally nothing good to say about them.
So a short story for context of this situation.
10 years ago, I fractured a few laws, got in trouble with the police didn’t have a massive deal of respect for other, and let alone myself. Call it my shitty upbringing, abuse or whatever. Either way I was a little bastard. I have accepted that. I have changed thusly and tried to better my life.
What I cannot stand is as soon as something goes wrong.the initial response is to look at me.
So December, and march this year money goes missing from my fathers account. Not a small amount, were talking a few thousand pounds now. I was the one that told him to report it, I was the one that did all the leg work to get it sorted for him.
On top of this I’d also like to add the pretext of saying that I am plagued with an eyesight problem. So it can be hard to see, or read things from time to time. So every now and again (because me and my father share the same name so when letters come, we may read each others)
Anyway, my mother finds the letters, one pertaining to the fraud on my dads account.
Instead of asking politely to give an explanation. Automatically thinks the worst and accuses me of stealing the money, or using my dads card, so on. Uses mt fucking past against. Its been 10 years since I fractured any law.
Anytime anything goes wrong, im a suspect for no reason. Even if its been proved otherwise.
I can’t get away from it, I don’t know how much longer I can take of this bullshit.
Its getting me down, I haven’t received an apology and they expect me to just carry on as if nothing has happened. Fuck that, in the words of the dragons… Im Out!!!